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Monday, 26 April 2010 i can breath, for the first time. @ 04:30 That I don't ever wanna be like you I don't wanna do the things you do I'm never gonna hear the words you say and I don't ever wanna, I don't ever wanna be you. Hello, good evening ladies and gentlemen. Yours truly is here today, to question about what the purpose of life is about. No, I'm most certainly not harbouring any suicidal tendencies, but I just realized that I can't stand not fitting in anymore. And the fact that everyone treats me like a black sheep, and practically ostracizes me. Because of my chinese. Sigh. Thanks ladies, thanks gentlemen. I realized that I don't want to try to fit in anymore. Because I'm sick, I'm tired, of all these masquerades. So I will move along, out of line while you all stay in line. Because I really, just can't bear it anymore. Being someone, that isn't me, just hurts. Thanks. Sigh, and I guess you guys might not like how I really am, but I guess we'll just have to see, yeah? People, I will do just that. (: Alright, so let's move on. Today was surprisingly fun, albeit the fact that no one messaged me T_T. HAHAHHA, but I had fun in school today. I realized my class has really great people, and I love you guys! (: Okay, first thing in the morning: PE. Holy shit. 2.4KM Run. Epic failed. I WAS 1 MINUTE SLOWER THAN MY PREVIOUS AND MY PREVIOUS WAS EPIC SLOW ALREADY OMG I FELT SO DAMN EPIC FREAKING SAD T_T. UGHHHHH. And poor dylan ran until he vomited ): Hope he'ssa alright. HMMMMMMMM. He totally emoed after that. We had Geog + Literature, had lotsa fun talking crap with Jowell, Junyuan, Shavonne and all (:. HAHAHHA. I just love my class suddenly, okay. D: And we had so many more lessons, and lotsa fun, I guess. D: Fun as in the "Hey-I'mma-Bored-Let's-Gossip-In-Class" Kinda fun. And guys gossip too, alright. And quoting my dear gossip girl, "try gossiping. It makes your skin glow." Honestly, HAHHAHA. Alright, then blahblahblah all the way till Drama. Which was quite fun, albeit the fact that the sec 3s had to leave super duper quickly ): Then we continued rehearsals, scrammed all the way up during drama break with 2 bottles of green tea(omg zz why the hell am I posting about this again?) for ZhenHong. Got bullied by Kanric to do so T_T. Note the height difference, ah, Kanric. HAHAHAHAH. Okay la okay la, I know I'm such a mean senior :X. Then came home. And started questioning my sanity. Sorry to say, and I hope this won't make people start thinking I'm an emo or something, but I actually cried. Okay, no I didn't cry. I teared. Around, 5 tears. Because I just felt empty somehow. I miss ________. I don't know why either. Sorry. So yeah, I realized I didn't have any purpose in life. I'm just whiling the days pass, without much of a goal. I felt like dying, because of that fact. Where the hell is my life leading to? What am I going to be, when I grow up? Will I make it? What are my aspirations..? Darling. I don't know. I. Don't. Freaking. Know. And why don't I know? SIGHHHHHHHHHHHH. But then wise words from my lovely sister Alvin came up. (: ALVIN TAN SHUFENG, YOU ROCK. SUPER OILY SISTER OWNAGE (Y). He said to just enjoy life. For now. Because it'ssa 101% sure thing, that nature will work it all out. And Alvin, I'll trust you. (: P.S. HAZEL CHANEL LIU PANGSEHHHHHHH. ): Friday = Must eat cheese fries. and go gaigai. P.P.S. NO LEONARD, I'm paying. D: somewhere too far for us to find.
Monday, 26 April 2010 i can breath, for the first time. @ 04:30 That I don't ever wanna be like you I don't wanna do the things you do I'm never gonna hear the words you say and I don't ever wanna, I don't ever wanna be you. Hello, good evening ladies and gentlemen. Yours truly is here today, to question about what the purpose of life is about. No, I'm most certainly not harbouring any suicidal tendencies, but I just realized that I can't stand not fitting in anymore. And the fact that everyone treats me like a black sheep, and practically ostracizes me. Because of my chinese. Sigh. Thanks ladies, thanks gentlemen. I realized that I don't want to try to fit in anymore. Because I'm sick, I'm tired, of all these masquerades. So I will move along, out of line while you all stay in line. Because I really, just can't bear it anymore. Being someone, that isn't me, just hurts. Thanks. Sigh, and I guess you guys might not like how I really am, but I guess we'll just have to see, yeah? People, I will do just that. (: Alright, so let's move on. Today was surprisingly fun, albeit the fact that no one messaged me T_T. HAHAHHA, but I had fun in school today. I realized my class has really great people, and I love you guys! (: Okay, first thing in the morning: PE. Holy shit. 2.4KM Run. Epic failed. I WAS 1 MINUTE SLOWER THAN MY PREVIOUS AND MY PREVIOUS WAS EPIC SLOW ALREADY OMG I FELT SO DAMN EPIC FREAKING SAD T_T. UGHHHHH. And poor dylan ran until he vomited ): Hope he'ssa alright. HMMMMMMMM. He totally emoed after that. We had Geog + Literature, had lotsa fun talking crap with Jowell, Junyuan, Shavonne and all (:. HAHAHHA. I just love my class suddenly, okay. D: And we had so many more lessons, and lotsa fun, I guess. D: Fun as in the "Hey-I'mma-Bored-Let's-Gossip-In-Class" Kinda fun. And guys gossip too, alright. And quoting my dear gossip girl, "try gossiping. It makes your skin glow." Honestly, HAHHAHA. Alright, then blahblahblah all the way till Drama. Which was quite fun, albeit the fact that the sec 3s had to leave super duper quickly ): Then we continued rehearsals, scrammed all the way up during drama break with 2 bottles of green tea(omg zz why the hell am I posting about this again?) for ZhenHong. Got bullied by Kanric to do so T_T. Note the height difference, ah, Kanric. HAHAHAHAH. Okay la okay la, I know I'm such a mean senior :X. Then came home. And started questioning my sanity. Sorry to say, and I hope this won't make people start thinking I'm an emo or something, but I actually cried. Okay, no I didn't cry. I teared. Around, 5 tears. Because I just felt empty somehow. I miss ________. I don't know why either. Sorry. So yeah, I realized I didn't have any purpose in life. I'm just whiling the days pass, without much of a goal. I felt like dying, because of that fact. Where the hell is my life leading to? What am I going to be, when I grow up? Will I make it? What are my aspirations..? Darling. I don't know. I. Don't. Freaking. Know. And why don't I know? SIGHHHHHHHHHHHH. But then wise words from my lovely sister Alvin came up. (: ALVIN TAN SHUFENG, YOU ROCK. SUPER OILY SISTER OWNAGE (Y). He said to just enjoy life. For now. Because it'ssa 101% sure thing, that nature will work it all out. And Alvin, I'll trust you. (: P.S. HAZEL CHANEL LIU PANGSEHHHHHHH. ): Friday = Must eat cheese fries. and go gaigai. P.P.S. NO LEONARD, I'm paying. D: somewhere too far for us to find.
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